Rest

It has been a while that I write my blog. Is not that I have nothing to write, but my schedule is a little tight. Talking about time, when you seems to overwhelm with some ideas that you want to do and you only given with the same time like every body else, it can be very restricted. That is why, I think I need to prioritize how I use my time.

I had some girls time for my past 2 weeks. I went to Vienna and Budapest with my lovely cousin and my very best friend. To be frank, it is really tiring. It was a lot of fun, cause it has been a while that I get the chance to travel around without my family, without guilt of having my own pleasure and without restriction on where and when. I revisited Vienna and get to go to some gallery that I love. Looking at all the arts hanging on the wall making me feeling so small cause all these great artists were so delved into their work and for myself is only expressive. I need more meaning towards my art, perhaps hard work is just not enough. Just found out that my artwork wasn’t selected for the competition I entered. I know it is only 1 so far, but this only 1 so far already making me feel like “why am I still trying?”. This is a negative talk, and it only happen like 2 days ago. But life hit it back on me, my son has swollen eye because of bacteria infection. And I realised that, we still move on and we need to prioritise.

So now, I stop sulking. I try to pick up what I left after my holidays and try to get my rhythm back. I hope these message get to help some who feel depressed or anxiety, because you and I are no different. We just need to be resilient and stay true.

Don’t give up even when life hits you so hard.

Be more emphathy and forgive yourself. Don’t be so hard on yourself because this is all you can do.

Don’t be lazy, cause nobody is going to do it for you, only you can do it for yourself. Start small and slowly.

Budapest trip was an eye opener. Why I said this is because I see so many people who works there are so unhappy. I know everyone needs to work to survive and now the income barely able to fulfill much. The stress level is crushing all your strength that you can carry. Is really sad to see, I am so lucky that I don’t have to worry too much, but that doesn’t mean I don’t worry at all. I just let it go and do what I can. Demand less and enjoy what you have. Little by little you can achieve it, you just have to believe. You can do it!