It Is Time To Judge

When I said time to judge, it might sound a little harsh. But honestly, I don’t know how to put it in another word to describe what I want to tell. It is about my own evaluation of how I did this year so far. As for my personal life and my own little artwork business. Here it goes;

So far, as a mother, I think I’m getting better. I’m a little more patient compared to how I used to be. I wasn’t the nicest mother and I sometime shout at my son. Yes, you heard it right, I shouted! It is like the most desperate moment and uncontrollable situation on myself that it happened. It happened a lot of time too. When he was younger, there wasn’t any verbal communication that can get me through the crying situation. I’m exhausted, my anger got on me very quickly and easily. But, every time when my anger got on me, I regretted immediately. Crying by myself at the corner when he went to sleep, or when I go for my shower. Feeling defeated and disappointed at myself thinking I’m a failure as a mother. Now my son speaks so well, still a little difficult on how he can control his frustration, but he managed it brilliantly, From time to time, when I looked back, I still felt disappointed at myself, like telling myself, I should be better. So as he get frustrated this time, I kept on telling myself, we can communicate better now. I’m trying and I think I’m getting there as a good mother. Some credit goes to my son too, he tried and he tried to be a good son. Trying so hard to tell me how he feels and all I have to do is be patient with him.

As for my artwork business, so far I’m gaining a little faith. From nobody heard of Milly Mill Ville to have someone admiring my work. Even it is just a small portion of who came to engange in my artwork, I’m very happy. Because of these people, I’m able to continue. Not financially but definitely spiritually. At least now I’m a little confidence on asking some coffee shop owner directly of how I want to sell my artwork in their cafe. Instead of just texting which I guessed nobody would want to reply back in English. I even got the chance to exhibit some of my artwork that I never think of selling it. Yet, with my artworrk showcase in the cafe, people get to check out what I do and gave me a chance to explain my artwork. Which in my own verdict, I think I’m getting there. Slowly and surely.

I want to personally thank those who supported me along the way, Sedmitchka cafe, Kaviaren Pacas, my husband, and my customers especially those who came back again to buy some of my product. Thank you so much, “Terima Kasih” and “谢谢”.