Appreciation

Recently my son caught the covid from nursery. It was a very worrisome time for me because the virus is very contagious and still not sure of the long term effect. So far, everything seems pretty good and he seems to have not much of the symptoms, just a slight fever, slight cough and flu.

With my son for more than a week in the house. Getting to know my son a little bit more and learning to get along with him a bit better. I know I’ve been dealing a lot with my own working stress, not progressing and even no sales. Not even know why I keep on doing it even though it is not fruitful at all. But recently I realised, when I was with my son, I started to let go a lot of stuffs. I kept on going because I genuinely love to draw and I learned that it is not the sales or times I spend but the process of making it. I let go of my ego and pride of getting any result from my work. As more time I spend with my son, I started to get less agitated every time he interrupt me. I used to get so frustrated when he interrupted me and I always send him off or get angry with him. I won’t deny that I even yell at him sometimes and I felt so ashamed and guilty of doing so. He taught me not just patience but also endurance. To endure the failure, to endure the frustration of keep going and to endure the hurting of my ego and pride. How I did it? I took a deep breath in between the anger. Loosen up the muscle by letting go of my breath that I’ve been holding up. Think of the positivity energy and telling myself it could be worse or to appreciate what I have. Every thing is up to us to choose because in the end, the decision you choose will impact how you see things in perspective. I choose for the betterment and I choose love. I choose my son and I choose to believe I can make it. My son makes me a better person and he helps me to grow. He is my every thing and I always love him. Hope one day, when I’m no longer exist, these words will remind him.